Saturday, May 8, 2010

Fields of Joy

The sun is rising and my heart aches with tremendous sorrow yet my heart is filled with unbelievable joy. Today is the day we will bury our Daughter, Reagan Marie. Although I have never heard Reagan laugh, I walked into her room this morning and heard a child's giggle. How can I let my heart ache so much when God gives me such comfort?
There have been so many little and big gifts from God this week. He continues to strengthen me and wow me.
As our journey continues I reflect back on who I was before February 18 (the day we found out we were having a little girl and that she would need God's healing hand) and the person I am now. I also reflect on how God gave us and continues to give us the strength and grace we need.

We love you our sweet little Reagan. You have touched so many lives, your life in my womb, the precious 21 minutes we had with you and now in the arms of Jesus. The outpouring of love for you is unmeasurable. We are so proud of you and greatly honored to be your parents. Thank you God for choosing us!

Our little angel is playing in the fields of joy in heaven, giggling away.

And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:7


  1. Your Faith is amazing......I am sorry for your pain. Hopefully my son and Reagan are dancing together. Love to you both

  2. Cindy - I don't know you personally, but we worship together every week at DCC. Seeing you there on Sunday moved me so much - after all you and Bob went through last week. I could see your tears, but I could also see your deep faith. Your strength is amazing, and I know it only comes from above. Your life is a witness to the grace, peace, love and glory of our Heavenly Father. Bless you.